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I had to deal with it for probably the rest of my life. At that time I was dealing with some other things, like brother, sister and mom and dad problems. I'm not the type to tell people my problems, so i kept it all inside until i snapped. I just had so much pain inside, and I didn't know how I could tell anyone. At night I usually cried myself to sleep, and one night my sister even asked if I was crying but I lied and said I wasn't. My parents told me it's not good to hold stuff in like i did, because usually i was mean i didn't care if i was then. I was like a little doom cloud. Later on I tried to talk to my parents about the pain I had, but I felt like they didn't believe me because I lied a lot but I was really trying to change. So I stopped talking to them after that. My sister and brother always talked to my parents about their problems or they just like to vent to them. If any of us got in trouble everyone would know in the house except me. If i ever got in trouble everyone would know, even though my sister and brother should not be in my business, but if my sister or brother got in trouble or something happened to them I would never know until someone said something about it. I will give you an example; my sister is 14 and she had a boyfriend, and she ended up breaking up with him. Of course my step mom, dad and brother knew. I kinda new what was happening. When my sister was crying I wanted to hug her and make her feel better. My brother was in the room hugging her and when I tried to walk in he closed the door on me, and too this day i don't know why. I was pretty upset about that because all I wanted to do was give her a hug. My family has always been secretive with me, like i didn't know my stepmom had the corona until i asked her, and once again everyone knew except me. She didn't tell me because she thought i was going to tell my mom, but i never did.