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I'm seventeen years old. I have been feeling so empty lately. I feel like my life is hopeless after all. I tried but I failed. I failed my goals, tasks and also I failed people. I've been giving everything I have. I've been doing everything I can but at the end of the day, nothing left. Just me. Falling apart ten times a day, trying my best for others and forgetting myself. I know that I need to love myself but I keep doing it wrong. I searched on google " how to love myself" but still I'm not doing those steps. I feel like I'm not loved. I know that we should be alone for sometimes but I really hate it. I really hate being alone at all. I know I have my friends but still they can't be there for me all the time and also not all of them are staying at the end. I really want to know how is it like to be being loved deeply and imagine someone would be there for you at the end of day and keep you up with the sweetest thing call love. Talking about love, my parents might love me but still they keep making me so upset. They never understand me. They never know what's happening and they are making things worse. I'm so sick of life. I hate giving everything every time. I never get anything back.
I love watching romantic movies or series but I keep crying while watching them. Those all characters are being loved and I'm not. I became to feel like I don't deserve to be loved. I start to feel I'm not enough. And I hate that. I wish that I was born almost perfect because no one's perfect and I know that. But I am the most imperfect person you have ever heard of. Believe me, I don't do lies. I wish that I can feel how's like to be love truely one day.