'My wife used to say I'm a hard man to know. Like a closed book. Complained about it all the time. She was beautiful. I loved her. But I guess I couldn't show it enough. I killed her, Red.' Andy finally glances to Red, seeking a reaction. Silence. 'I didn't pull the trigger. But I drove her away. That's why she died. Because of me, the way I am.' "That don't make you a murderer. Bad husband, maybe." Andy smiles faintly in spite of himself. Red gives his shoulder a squeeze. "Feel bad about it if you want. But you didn't pull the trigger." 'No. I didn't. Someone else did, and I wound up here. Bad luck, I guess.' "Bad luck? Jesus." 'It floats around. Has to land on somebody. Say a storm comes through. Some folks sit in their living rooms and enjoy the rain. The house next door gets torn out of the ground and smashed flat. It was my turn, that's all. I was in the path of the tornado.' 'I just had no idea the storm would go on as long as it has.' 'You think you'll ever get out of here?' "Me?... Sure. When I got a long white beard and about three marbles left rolling around upstairs they let me out." 'Tell you where I'd go. Zihuatanejo.' "Zihu... what?" 'Zihuatanejo. It's in Mexico. Little place on the Pacific ocean. You know what the Mexicans say about the Pacific? They say it has no memory. That's where I'd like to live for the rest of my life. A warm place with no memory. Open up a little hotel, right on the beach. Buy some worthless old boat and fix it up new. Take my guests out charter fishing...' "Zihuatanejo ahn..." 'You know, a place like that, I could use a man who knows how to get things.' "I don't think I could make it on the outside Andy. I mean... I've been in here most of my life. I'm an institutional man now. Just like Brooks was." 'Well you underestimate yourself.' "I don't think so... I mean in here I'm the guy who can get things for you sure but, outside all you need is the yellow pages, I wouldn't even know where to begin. Pacific ocean? Shit scare me to death something that big." 'Not me. I didn't shoot my wife and I didn't shoot her lover whatever mistakes I made I've paid for and then some. That hotel and that boat...I don't think it's too much to ask.' "I don't think you should be doing this to yourself Andy. This is shitty pipedreams! Mexico's way the hell down there, and you're in here, and that's the way it is!" 'Yeah right that's the way it is. It's down there and I'm in here. I guess it comes down to a simple choice, really. Get busy living or get busy dying.'